A Past That Has Passed And Moved On
For years
I longed to "go home".
Stomping ground of
A happy childhood
Countless fun times
Important life lessons
Pampering, privilege
Family, friends
Acquaintances, foes
All beckoning with
The promise of
Tranquillity and
Sanctuary from the fray.
However, on returning
I saw that
Everything I yearned for
Was in a place
That only existed
In my mind.
Everyone
The same
But strangely
Different
Diffidence and boldness
Had blithely
Swapped places
Inexplicably
Leaving me in
An unfathomable
Though oddly
Bearable
Place called
No-man's land.
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What then to do?
How best to
Embrace
This somewhat
Unwelcome evolution?
Learn how to
Delight in the
"Mundane" present?
Nervously, eagerly
Anticipate the wonders
Of the morrow?
You see
No matter how much
I longed to
Welcome it back
I had not glanced
Over my shoulder
And found an
Ever elusive yore
Gaining on me
For outside of
My subconscious,
Though it
Nipped at my heels
It had
No power to do so.
Each bite was
Always hesitant -
Simply waiting
For me to
Capitulate
By sinking deep
Into memory's
Melancholic grip,
Subtly disguised
As a clasp d'amour
Ready to wring
Reason, logic
And the hope of
What could be
Out of me
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No Hobson's choice
It was instead
Free will's
Reminder
That to
Take advantage
Of the future
I had to savour
The right now
Forget the had been
Rock steadily
Back and forth
In the wonder of today
Embracing God's
Love, provision
Mercy, grace
And awesome plan.
What pain
There was
Would dull,
The laughter
Become a pleasant
Yet faint memory,
Any lingering expectations
Still unmet
Chalked down
To a lack
Of understanding
And experience;
Relationships
Ordered then reordered
Ad infinitum;
Each minute spent
Tilting on the
Edge of destiny:
Fulfilment a subtle
Whisper away...
On leaving
The past
Behind.
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📖 “I am not saying that I have already reached that place in my life. I have not yet completely become the person that God wants me to be. But I am trying very hard to reach that place. That was Christ's purpose when he first made me his own. My Christian friends, I do not think that I have reached that place yet. But this is what I do: I do not think about past things that have already happened. Instead, I try hard to reach the things that are in front of me.”
Philippians 3:12-13 EASY (YouVersion)
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